Darkness is a favourite associate of mine. When dealing with something as incontrolable and never diminishing as tinnitus ringing loudly, your mind has no option but to shut it out and isolation befalls your very existence. You clean to calm, drink to forget all whilst sitting in the dark binded with the very soul destroyer you despise.
Its like sitting with your girlfriend who is looking at you angirly and armed with a machete that she repeatedly cuts you with. Yet you still wish to be with her.